December 27, 2001

TO 親愛的小新~(甜笑)

我真的沒有收到你上禮拜寄的MAIL(爆)
到底是寄去哪裡了啊?網路世界果然神奇.....(合掌)
再寄一次給我啦~(搖尾巴)

話說回來,其實有一則關於你的小八卦喔(爆)
那天聚餐隔天大家各自回家以後,
聽說ㄌㄟ媽媽有問:「啊昨天晚上怎麼有一個男生上去跟你們睡?」(爆)

好像應該回一句:「如果真是男生,才不給他上來咧~」(毆)

很棒的ㄌㄟ哥哥(心)

(忘了是這幾天中的哪一天)晚上在看「愛神亂配對」的時候,
我向ㄌㄟ大力推薦這部戲裡面的岸谷五郎(←...好像有錯字?)(抓頭)
小平頭加上西裝,還有比以前削瘦的臉頰,
個人覺得實在是比東京仙履情緣啊、戀人よ等等等的時候都好看得多。

不常看日劇的ㄌㄟ當然是有聽沒有懂,
但是ㄌㄟ哥哥就轉過頭來一臉懷疑:「岸谷五郎?」
某寒:『對啊,不覺得他在這部戲裡面比較帥嗎?』
螺哥:「有嗎?這是哪一年的戲?
    ...(屈指算一邊碎碎念)...你說柳葉敏郎帥我還比較同意...」
某寒:『歐歐歐~?!(大心)』

我真的是越來越喜歡ㄌㄟ哥哥了~(心)

這五天以來...

好像是放鬆又繃緊又再放鬆的弦,
...有點兒累。好不容易回到東海自己的房間裡面。

是為什麼一進入那個空間裡就會不由自主的熬夜起來了呢?(思)
好像非得趕著在期限之內把什麼事情給做完不可,
不過期限在哪裡呢?又是什麼事呢?

星期六的晚上是一頁目錄,翻閱-檢索-歸納-分類,
把數年間的空白補起,
場景其實應該是在滿天星斗下的山頂草地,
燒一盆火來溫手,......然後烤雞腿來吃。(心)

今年聖誕節最感謝的,其實是因為跟小新一起過,
然後捲在被子們裡面一起耍寶,(笑)
覺得這一切都好快,從重逢、懷念,到共享一個秘密(那還是秘密嗎?)(汗)
...過聖誕節,彷彿幸福得不像是真的。

一個節日最大的意義或許莫過於此吧,
讓大家聚集起來,朋友們牽起彼此的手,喝酒跳舞。

但還是會有解不開的結,以及再度繁殖的東西。


...等待下次節日嗎?(微笑)

December 18, 2001

古早以前某一群人的故事

星期六下午,在家跟兩老(毆)泡茶閒扯的時候,忘記了是說到什麼,爸居然上樓去把「族譜手抄本」找了出來。
...其實不過是一張A4的白紙(笑)
上面是阿公工整漂亮的字,總共七世祖宗們的名字。

我和弟弟是這系統的第二十世,第十三世(應該是吧?)的那位祖先叫做「上秧公」(...看起來應該是個種田的人吧?)(爆)
然後,有詳細記載的是從我阿祖的那一輩開始。

以下就是古早以前(?)某一群人(??)的故事。(爆)



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December 17, 2001

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我真的想知道自己在你心中的定位。

你開口邀我一起去旅行,我知道你只是想找個伴,
只是想在旅程中有個說話的對象......而我是你的N號人選。

但我仍傻傻的,為了出發日竟是2/14,而心跳不已。


然後竟妄想真能夠與你一起踏上北方的雪地。

客觀條件中到底有哪一項能夠支持我做這項決定?我不斷問自己。
真要為了已經決定、永遠不要被表達的這份情感,付出如此大的代價?